Today scales are my friend

Today was measurements and weighting day, I was so scared that in preparation I didn't eat much yesterday, drank very little water in the morning and ate only half portion of the porridge. But it was good. Everything's OK and I've lost 4kg in a month (that's 1kg per week) which is really good - out of it 2kg are of pure fat! The other number that is exciting is 8cm - that's how much I lost in my hips! WOW! I couldn't believe it and we measured it twice. All that sacrifice, blood, sweat and tears were worth it. Besides, I feel fitter and healthier, which is also mega-important.

I'll have next PT session on Friday and then after Eater, but I vow to keep my exercise regime even when I go to Poland - running, cycling and going for walks with my dog.

To celebrate I went to Superdrug and bought new face masks as well as a new  Superdrug Gentle Face Wash Vitamin E. I also bought sushi for lunch and added some strawberries and an orange. I feel great sitting in small shorts, I've done GTL*, the sun is shining, birds are chirping and tomorrow's weekend!

I recently bought two great Revlon nail polishes - one of them is 042 Sunshine Sparkle and the other is 320 Ocean Breeze. I decided to praise the sun today and paint my nails with Sunshine Sparkle. It has nice pale yellow colour with tiny little glitter, so it doesn't show at first.

The Ocean Breeze is yet to be tested, but I'm very curious about the results, because apparenlty it is scented when it dries - imagine perfumed nails!



*GTL - Gym, Tanning, Laundry - just watch Jersey Shore

Patience and consistency

Yesterday I didn't go to the gym, because I was so tired. I just slept on until 10.30am and it seriously messed up my day. I was mega tired after the weekend and I also have this frickin' back muscle pain, that when we were at AW's on Saturday and I stood up after sitting for a while, I just flinched and bended down in an impulse like an old lady. But I knew I had to go today, so even though it was pouring rain, I armed myself with umbrella and wellies. Boyfriend had to cycle to work in the rain. That's a dedication!

I thought that after yesterday's rest my pain would lessen today, but it was so bad that I couldn't walk fast on a treadmill. Surprisingly I WAS able to run. I bumped into my PT and she told me that the cause may be lots of walking I've been doing lately. Well, this sounds believable. Boyfriend tells me that it's simply pulled muscle and it'll be gone within few days. I truly hope so, because I have PT session on Friday morning! 

I STILL feel guilty about not going to the gym yesterday. I ate lots of salt & vinegar peanuts too (Yum! I'm addicted to salty things!). I really want to loose 5kg before for my birthday but I don't see it happening if I continue to eat not healthy. I know it's all because last week when I went on scales it showed that I gained 0,5kg. I was expecting everything, but not that. On the positive side, PT told me that her mom was stuck on the same weight for more than 4 weeks and she was exercising and didn't have any slip. So it can be worse. I just need to be patient and consistent (two of the virtues I do not possess).

Smelling spring in the air

Today officially the spring has begun. You could smell it in the air - it was so sunny and warm. Just one of these perfect London days when you're happy and strangers actually smile at you on the streets. Some of them are already wearing flip-flops and short sleeves - that's what happens when the temperature reaches over 16 degrees. I truly hope that it's going to stay like that, because I want to go cycling over the weekend (even Dom-dom agreed to come!).

I went to the gym today and I was pretty let down when I stepped on the scales. It's just my stupid body resisting to any change even though I'm forcing it. I just have to survive. But it's really unfair when I think that I haven't eaten ANY chocolate or crisps for more than 3-4 weeks and although my stamina improved, I don't see the results.

Yesterday I sat and read One Day by David Nicholls. I was gripped by the story of two people who meet after their graduation and we follow their lives from then on to the same date every year. It's amazing how people change and yet remain the same. How their priorities and desires change over the years. This book helped me to put some things in perspective. I also talked to Dom-dom for over 2 hours today and she kept repeating the thing she always tells me - that in few years I'll forget about this period of not having job and just simply move on.

New opportunity?

OK, so tomorrow I have interview with an agent about some paralegal job which involves Polish speaker. Well known American law firm, so would look great on my CV. Keep the fingers crossed please! I'm only worried that this is a really temporary job, so in a month or two I would have to start looking all over again and be in the same miserable position. But at least I'd have some more experience then. Also, I still have no response from the interview I had last week (Publishing Assistant job). The more I think about it, the better it looks, but I don't want to keep my hopes up as it probably won't work out.

Medicine and litres of Earl Grey helped me and I no longer feel pain in my throat. Only thing which worries me is that I am not eating lately. For the person who can finish everything from her plate and eat dessert this is really unusual. I survive on one or two sandwiches... Normally this is like a snack for me! Not that it REALLY bothers me - I have to lose some weight - but I think that this is not a healthy way of doing it. It is the stress which takes toll on me...