Today scales are my friend

Today was measurements and weighting day, I was so scared that in preparation I didn't eat much yesterday, drank very little water in the morning and ate only half portion of the porridge. But it was good. Everything's OK and I've lost 4kg in a month (that's 1kg per week) which is really good - out of it 2kg are of pure fat! The other number that is exciting is 8cm - that's how much I lost in my hips! WOW! I couldn't believe it and we measured it twice. All that sacrifice, blood, sweat and tears were worth it. Besides, I feel fitter and healthier, which is also mega-important.

I'll have next PT session on Friday and then after Eater, but I vow to keep my exercise regime even when I go to Poland - running, cycling and going for walks with my dog.

To celebrate I went to Superdrug and bought new face masks as well as a new  Superdrug Gentle Face Wash Vitamin E. I also bought sushi for lunch and added some strawberries and an orange. I feel great sitting in small shorts, I've done GTL*, the sun is shining, birds are chirping and tomorrow's weekend!

I recently bought two great Revlon nail polishes - one of them is 042 Sunshine Sparkle and the other is 320 Ocean Breeze. I decided to praise the sun today and paint my nails with Sunshine Sparkle. It has nice pale yellow colour with tiny little glitter, so it doesn't show at first.

The Ocean Breeze is yet to be tested, but I'm very curious about the results, because apparenlty it is scented when it dries - imagine perfumed nails!



*GTL - Gym, Tanning, Laundry - just watch Jersey Shore

Patience and consistency

Yesterday I didn't go to the gym, because I was so tired. I just slept on until 10.30am and it seriously messed up my day. I was mega tired after the weekend and I also have this frickin' back muscle pain, that when we were at AW's on Saturday and I stood up after sitting for a while, I just flinched and bended down in an impulse like an old lady. But I knew I had to go today, so even though it was pouring rain, I armed myself with umbrella and wellies. Boyfriend had to cycle to work in the rain. That's a dedication!

I thought that after yesterday's rest my pain would lessen today, but it was so bad that I couldn't walk fast on a treadmill. Surprisingly I WAS able to run. I bumped into my PT and she told me that the cause may be lots of walking I've been doing lately. Well, this sounds believable. Boyfriend tells me that it's simply pulled muscle and it'll be gone within few days. I truly hope so, because I have PT session on Friday morning! 

I STILL feel guilty about not going to the gym yesterday. I ate lots of salt & vinegar peanuts too (Yum! I'm addicted to salty things!). I really want to loose 5kg before for my birthday but I don't see it happening if I continue to eat not healthy. I know it's all because last week when I went on scales it showed that I gained 0,5kg. I was expecting everything, but not that. On the positive side, PT told me that her mom was stuck on the same weight for more than 4 weeks and she was exercising and didn't have any slip. So it can be worse. I just need to be patient and consistent (two of the virtues I do not possess).

Scared of scales

Yesterday I've finally read a proper book. I am a true book-worm ever since Mother taught me to read when I was three. But because I'm not feeling good and this horrible depression I can't concentrate on anything and even reading was put aside. It is a book Polish written by Małgorzata Gutowska-Adamek "Cukiernia Pod Amorem". It is a story about the twisted and tangled family ties on within a space of a century. There are supposed to be two other tomes and I hope to read them soon. I'm not really fan of books like that, but I was surprised how interesting it was becoming with each chapter I read.

I also have a pile of magazines waiting for me to read them. I'm so bad - I usually buy and them forget or put it aside and never actually get down to read it. By the time I want tom there's new issue and I put it on top to make even bigger pile. I have weekend editiong of El País, Culture from The Sunday Times, Glamour, Stylist and Zest. 

Today I had a meeting with personal trainer Renata. She is extremely nice and easy to talk to. I had all the measurements taken and to be honest I am embarrassed. I don't know how I could have allowed for such enormity to happen... I really need to start taking care of myself in all areas of my life - psychologically and physically. I have two more sessions with her and then my 6 weeks membership expires (of which I didn't use much, because of my laziness and being sick), but I'm already planning to buy 4 months membership. I MUST exercise and diet or it's going to get even worse. I have never, ever weighted so much in my entire life and I had no idea it is even possible for me to weight that much (OK, I am exaggerating, but it was pretty bad when I stepped on scales). The worst thing is that I don't have energy and determination. I just have to find it in me.

So today is my first day of diet - I eat less, no sweets and fast foods, I drink plenty of water and I go to the gym 4-5 times a week. Easy to write and say, so much harder to actually do, but I have to keep trying. Almost one year ago I've survived TEN whole days without any food - just mixture of water, honey and lemon, so I know I have it somewhere inside me. 

6 weeks experiment

For a while I have been thinking about loosing some weight and shape-up in a serious way (not the usual I'll start on Monday crap). For a long time I've had a huge pile of Zest magazines on my bedside table and when I started to read them I've felt that I need to change myself, to get better and healthy. It's also one of my New Year Resolutions, so I had to at least attempt to do something.  

"Be bold and courageous. When you look back on your life, 

you'll regret the things you didn't do more than the ones you did." 

H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

So to kick start my new healthier approach to life I need to do two things: go on a diet and start exercising. 

I do have problems with dieting - if I let it slip once - I'm done. However, if I want to and commit to something - I can do it. Last year I went on a 10-days detox when I drank only water mixed with honey and lemon (my own version of Lemon Detox Diet). Now I simply need to eat less and more healthy and stop eating all these sugary desserts and sweets. 

As for getting moving I've decided to join the gym for six weeks. I know that six weeks is VERY little, but I do not want to commit myself to buying a full membership. Firstly, I don't have that kind of money and the six weeks option is cheaper. Secondly, I've already was a gym member and I was so committed to exercise that I went there only a couple of times. So now - when I have only six weeks - I want to commit myself to these six weeks only. Maybe later I'll buy a full membership, maybe not. But for now, because I have time frame and I know when this will actually end - I have better motivation not to waste the money and use it! 

After two visits at the gym, where the incompetency of the customer manager forced me to write a letter of complaint, I simply couldn't buy this 6 weeks membership. They were so pushy and invasive that I just backed out and bought it on-line (thankfully, it was possible to do it on the website). I just can't wait to see their faces when they will give me my membership card on Monday!