Why is that the whole world is telling me and I still can't believe them. Why is that only her words validate me and my actions. Why is that she - who is supposed to love me unconditionally - hurts me the most and no matter what I do is still not satisfied. Why is that I always have to watch my tongue and I can never tell her everything. Why is that every time I first have to check in what mood is she. Why is that my Mother will never listen to me, truly listen - not only worlds, but listen with understanding. Why she doesn't have any respect for me - just because I don't have a fucking job.